Joblessness

does not suit me.

I like to be constructive 

with my time.

And not having something 

to do, 

someone to work for

has been rather difficult.

Because if I don't 

have some sort of a schedule

or some reason to get up

and go, 

I don't. 

I tend to just hang around

and just chill in my pj's all day.

It's a dangerous place to be in.

Which is why I'm thankful

that friends have been wanting 

to meet up with me and go do things

the past couple of days. 

It gives me something else to do

other than sit in front of my 

computer all day filling out 

endless applications

for jobs. 

Looking for a job is always something 

that the Lord uses

to build patience in my life. 

Always.

It's so frustrating. 

I want it to work that when I 

apply for a job, 

I hear back from them

within a couple of days

and have them tell me yes or no.

Often, I just get the response of no. 

Which can be even more frustrating. 

I want to get a job. 

I want to be able to pay bills 

and be a productive member of 

society...

do they not see that?

Anyway, 

as I was re-reading Hebrews today, 

the Lord reminded me of Sarah's plight.

Hebrews 11:11 says

"By faith even Sarah herself received ability to conceive, even beyond the proper time of life, since she considered Him faithful who had promised." (Emphasis added.)

Sarah was an old woman. 

God promised her that she

would have a son. 

And she had 

the audacity to 

believe

Him. 

Sarah didn't have the faith

in her body to help her have 

her son. 

But she had faith 

in the God of the universe. 

She believed that the 

Lord is faithful

and that He would follow

through on His promises. 

Now, I'm not saying that 

God has promised me a job. 

But I do know that He has 

promised to take care of all

my needs. 

He will be there for me 

through this time of uncertainty. 

And I can completely trust in Him.

And that is absolutely fantastic. 

I choose to believe in the 

One who holds the stars 

in His hands. 

As I continued along 

in my journey through

Hebrews,

the Lord reminded me

that I can still be constructive 

in all the downtime I have.

Hebrews 12:1-2 says

"Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
During this time, I can fix 

my eyes on the Prize:

Jesus. 

I can choose to spend 

my time with Him 

instead of wasting it away 

with hours spent on the internet

or watching movies.

I can be faithful in 

prayer and getting in the Word

and in encouraging my friends 

in their walks with the Lord. 

What an encouraging time!

Instead of worrying about not 

having a job, I can

spend it diving into a deeper 

relationship with the One I love.

As I continued in my reading, 

I read

Hebrews 12:28-29:

"Therefore, since we receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let us show gratitude, by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe; for our God is a consuming fire."

In the past, I always started 

freaking out 

after not hearing back from 

anyone after a week about

a job. 

But looking back, 

I have always seen

how the Lord

provided the right

job in His time. 

So. 

This time, 

I want it to be different. 

I don't want to freak out. 

But I want to choose to be grateful

for what the Lord is doing in my life. 

I want to be grateful

that He's going to use this time to grow me

and continue to shape me 

more into the likeness of His Son. 

I already have "a kingdom that cannot be shaken"

because it's found in the Creator. 

So whatever happens on this 

earth just doesn't compare. 

I shouldn't worry about these things. 

But I should focus on Him. 

Along those same lines,

Hebrews 13:5 says

"Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, 'I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you.'"

Right now, 

I need to be content with what I have. 

It's not much. 

But still, 

the Lord has given it to me. 

So I need to be the best steward

of what I have. 

And I need to be thankful to Him

for blessing me in this way. 

He is good. 

He deserves all praise and glory. 

Psalm 145

I will extol You, my God, O King, and I will bless Your name forever and ever. Every day I will bless You, and I will praise Your name forever and ever. Great is the Lord, and highly to be praised, and His greatness is unsearchable. One generation shall praise Your works to another, and shall declare Your mighty acts.

On the glorious splendor of Your majesty and on Your wonderful works, I will meditate. Men shall speak of the power of Your awesome acts, and I will tell of Your greatness. They shall eagerly utter the memory of Your abundant goodness and will shout joyfully of Your righteousness.

The Lord is gracious and merciful; slow to anger and great in lovingkindness. The Lord is good to all, and His mercies are over all His works. All Your works shall give thanks to You, O Lord, and Your godly ones shall bless You. They shall speak of the the glory of Your kingdom and talk of Your power; to make known to the sons of men Your mighty acts and the glory of the majesty of Your kingdom. Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and Your dominion endures throughout all generations.

The Lord Sustains all who fall and raises up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to You, and You give them their food in due time. You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing. 

The Lord is righteous in all His ways and kind in all His deeds. The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, to all who call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He will also hear their cry and will save them. The Lord keeps all who love Him, but all the wicked He will destroy. My mouth will speak the praise of the Lord, and all flesh will bless His holy name forever and ever. 

Hebrews 13:20-21

Now the God of peace, who brought up from the dead the great Shepherd of the sheep through the blood of the eternal covenant, even Jesus our Lord, equip you in every good thing to do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

Blessings.