Life is funny.

Well, most of the time that is.
The past few weeks
have been crazy busy.
But the Lord has taught me a lot
through them.
I've been having a hard time
here lately.
Not only with being homesick
and really missing my family.
But also with life in general.
I've been feeling excluded,
unloved, and unwanted.
But, as I've been coming out
of that period of darkness,
the Lord has allowed me to
look back at it
and remember that those were exactly
how I was before I knew Christ.
I was lost in the passions and lusts of the flesh.
I was excluded from all the blessings of
being a child of the Most Holy God.
I was not loved by the world,
but simply part of the cycle of sin.
I was not wanted by people,
but was used.
But now. This is just not the case.
The Lord has been reminding me
constantly
of His gospel and of His grace
and love for me.
He has made me more aware
of the people around me
who might be feeling those same things.
But most of all.
He's made me so thankful
for the people He has placed in
my life who really do care about me.
Those people who are by my side and
who I know are praying for me on a
consistent basis,
who are encouraging me.
To know these things
has been a huge blessing.
And I know the Lord will continue to grow
me and stretch me in this area.
I desperately need Him to,
that's for sure.

But, anyway.
I'm trying to make a rather big
decision right now.
And it's so frustrating,
because I just don't know what to do.
I don't know which path would be better.
And in reality, I think they are both good.
But, which would be better, or
in which would I grow most,
I have no earthly idea.
I have been praying for discernment and
wisdom about this for a while.
And I still have yet to come to a
conclusion.
But I know the Lord is faithful,
and He will help me make a decision.
He will guide me.
And in the end,
if I am trusting Him and pursuing after Him,
then whatever decision I make,
laying aside all selfishness,
will be His will for me.
He's not going to let me go down the wrong path.
He's going to keep me close to Him.
Which is what I have been asking for.
There is no black and white answer,
as far as I can tell.
But I know that He will be faithful.

Oh,
exciting news:
I am going to see my family for Thanksgiving!!
Yay!
I am so very excited about this!
And I cannot wait to head out to see them!
It will be one of the greatest blessings to see
all of them in November!

Um, but yeah.
That's my life:
work, school, church, friends, and spending time with the Lord.
It's a good life.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Blessings.