that would describe
what this week
has been like so far.
And it's only Wednesday.
Basically,
the Lord has completely
convicted me about a lot
of things in my life.
I had built up
a lot of
idols.
I had let
other good things
become more important
than Him.
Not that I wasn't spending time
with Him,
but that I wasn't
being intentional
in digging deeper,
in truly connecting
to the Vine.
He's shown me where I've
fallen short
over the past few weeks.
And it hasn't been
easy to look at myself this way.
But it's been necessary.
And I'm so thankful that it's happening right now.
So. Very. Thankful.
I've allowed
dumb situations
to take precedence over my
relationship with Christ.
And that's not okay with me.
I've allowed my feelings to reign.
I've allowed situations and feelings
to dictate the
way I treat others.
And I feel so stupid about that.
It's impacted my
friendships,
any potential ministry
that could have taken place,
and my relationship with God.
I've been starting to
read through the book of
Jeremiah; some verses really stood out to me.
Jeremiah 1:16
"I will pronounce My judgments on them concerning all their wickedness, whereby they have forsaken Me and have offered sacrifices to other gods, and worshiped the works of their own hands."
How convicting!
I was doing that.
I was worshiping other gods,
my idols.
And I had left God bringing Him
what was left.
Jeremiah 2:11
"Has a nation changed gods when they were not gods? But My people have changed their glory for that which does not profit."
What I had exchanged God for
did not profit me in the least.
I have learned lessons from it,
but there could have been a different way
to learn those lessons.
Praise the Lord for
forgiveness and redemption!
Jeremiah 3:12-13
"'Return, faithless Israel,' declares the Lord; 'I will not look upon you in anger. For I am gracious,' declares the Lord; 'I will not be angry forever. Only acknowledge your iniquity, that you have transgressed against the Lord your God and have scattered your favors to the strangers under every green tree, and you have not obeyed My voice,' declares the Lord."
In Him I can find forgiveness.
And to Him I have run.
I need Him.
Desperately.
I know that this will
not be the last time I will sin.
But I want and desire
for the Lord to work in my life.
I want Him to cover me
and continue the work of
sanctification
that He has begun long ago.
I know my potential and
my tendency to run
to idols,
so I need to learn
to keep my eyes focused
only on the Lord.
Jeremiah 10:1-16.
Read it.
It's incredible.
It's a reminder that the things of this world
could never compare to the Lord.
Because He is the Lord.
So.
And even during this
time of confession,
a lot of other things have
been going on.
There's a lot of changes
happening right now.
And it's freaking me out.
There's a lot of unknowns
right now.
I think that's the most difficult part.
Unknowns.
I don't know what to do with them.
But there's only one thing to do:
PRAY!
So I am.
A lot.
Anyway.
That's really all.
I don't have anymore
insight.
Blessings.
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