Nerves

So, 

my nerves tend to get the best of me. 

And by tend,

I usually mean always.

Ha. 

I try so very hard not to get nervous

about things. 

But it's just the way things work in my head. 

My heart starts to race.

My hands get ice cold. 

I feel a little light headed. 

And I get really shaky. 

You know, all the fun stuff. 

And you would think I'd be used to it by now. 

But I'm not. 

I get nervous about silly little things, 

like talking in front of people, 

or even talking to people I don't know. 

But I also get nervous about big things, 

like singing in front of people,

and driving across the country by myself. 

Today

I'm nervous. 

In just a short while

I'll be heading to the church building

for an audition of sorts 

for the worship team. 

I have to sing in front of a select number of people. 

And I'm just slightly nervous about it.

Who am I kidding. 

I'm starting to freak out. 

I'm nervous that my voice will suddenly

die. 

I'm nervous that I won't remember 

the words to the songs. 

(Even though I have them all printed out.)

I'm just nervous.

You would think that I wouldn't be 

nervous, 

especially after spending an 

entire summer serving 

on the performance team

singing and dancing for people.

But, this is just one of those things that I 

always

get nervous for. 

Welcome to my life. 

ha. 

Oh. 

I only have to wait

7 more days

till I get to see my 

family!!!!!

I can't even believe

that it's already time

to head to Texas!

Blessings.